Falling falling falling

My world is exploding,
pieces falling around me.
And I can only fall through
the holes that were once beautiful landscapes, people, memories, and emotions.
Where will I land
when the crumbling subsides
and dust particles settle?
What will be left of the remnants
called “my life?”


I’m a college graduate!


Yesterday afternoon I graduated with my BA in English. It’s finally hit me, as I’m on my way to celebrate with Alan at Disney world! It has been three years of really really really hard work, dedication, and super long nights and early mornings. There have been tears and laughter along the way. And I couldn’t have done it without the love and support that Alan and Scot have given me over the years. And within the last few months GG has come into our lives and have just lit up Scot’s life. And her love has brought us both joy.

I wasn’t sure if it was going to “feel like a big deal” to me. I’ve been trying to be fairly nonchalant about it. But getting not only a college degree, the first one in my family, and to graduate magna cum laude, feels fucking huge to me. I’m normally fairly humble, but I am hella proud of myself. I know how much I’ve given of myself to get to this point. But I still have a long way to go. I don’t know what the future holds, and I know change is on the horizon, and I look forward to both. Putting on my cap and gown and all my “flair” made it real for me yesterday. Funny how clothes can make you feel a certain way. Forevermore I am a college graduate, and in a crap load of debt!

Here’s to grad school and paying off student loans for the next decade and a half!!!

Thank you GG for making me look fabulous. Thank you Scot for the beautiful flowers- the kitties munched on them last night apparently. And thank you Alan for Dr Seuss and a grown up portfolio. 🙂